Ok, so I'm back. I posted two forums, i believe.Thanks to the people who replied and had such positive things to say.I went on the 2nd of December to the doctor, told her my situation, and she immediatley sent me to the lab to have my blood taken out.I had my blood taken out,it was a couple of tubes of it. I guess for the different tests. Then I waited a week.I believe it was the 9th when I went back for my results and one of the nurses read it to me.NEGATIVE EVERYTHING!!!! Negative for HSV1/HSV2,HIV,AIDS, and another test for syphillis and gonorehea.I was so happy, but then again. I am a doubtful person and deep down in side, the thought of having that thing in my mouth in the first place wasn't the best sign. today is December 28th and theres this little white almost translucent spot on the inside of my mouth all the way up,not on my gum,but like the top of flesh like that connects your inner cheek to your gums, its on the left hand side.And the surrounding area is red.Now if my tests were negative, what is this in my mouth?? I really just want to know could my blood test be a lie?And on top of all of this. My insurance expires on the December 31.Since I am 19, my fathers insurance cant cover me and to see a doctor or get another test is really expensive.And I am dead broke. And what if I do have it,my boyfriend never left and felt as if I had nothing to begin with, but what if I have it now. I dont want to hurt him.I'm just confused and ready to just die. I would really like some advice on: Can oral herpes be something else?,Can Negative tests be false?,and should I go about being retested or chill out? Your comments are more than welcome and incredibly appreciated. Thanks, for taking the time to read about my boring,depressing life,lol.Bye!!!